It's that time of the month again, time for another Insecure Writers Support Group. Thanks to Alex J. Cavanaugh for hosting this fantastic group.
Okay, this is an insecurity that usually pops up when I reach the middle of the novel (although I've been feeling it lately at the beginning when I'm staring into the vast unknown), what if this idea doesn't go anywhere? What if I'm excited about the beginning but then I realise that's the only part of the story that I'm actually excited about? All the time I've spent writing, working on the characters, on the backstory, on trying to put in some twists and turns and just come to the middle lag and realise the idea is a 'meh'. If I think it's 'meh', then certainly the people who take the time to pick it up and attempt to read it will also come to that conclusion.
Okay, so I could just give it up, toss it out, start a new. Yeah, like all those family dinners missed and missed housework (like that's a problem) will be all for nothing because I can't even be bothered to stick with the story. But here's also my problem. I can't give up my babies so easily. Yep, I'm persistent if anything else, and I usually spend so long staring at blank pages and then rewriting until the beginning chapters doesn't look anything like what I started with.
Today I actually found out a little solution to help keep motivated with the story, and it will also help provide characters with little twists that you didn't even think about beforehand. I'm writing a story based around a family of monster hunters and a girl with the ability to see (and feel) anyone's death with just a single touch. I don't know how many times I've rewritten the start just to find the right starting point, but today I thought I'd go and create a hunters journal from the perspective of my main character's older brother. I had only intended to write a short description of each monster with how to kill and a bit of character perspective, but instead I ended up writing an entire short story that takes place twelve years prior to the story's beginning, and this not only helped motivate me with providing me with possible storylines, but I've also got an interesting backstory for the brother being developed that I hadn't thought about before. Now I'm all stoked to jump into this story, and hopefully more short stories will also come out of it (I've still got lots of creatures to write about).
So, that's my big insecurity. What's yours?